Monday, May 23, 2011 @ 7:26 AM 0 stares
So here it goes, my boyfriend texted me to let him borrow some money for his fare back home. Its already our vacation so everyone’s going back at their own provinces. I arrived yesterday, and yeah I did left him. HAHA [ its just very awkward I guess. I mean Im loving GD AND TOP SO MADLY that sometimes I dont know what to do with my boyfriend anymore.]
So I did told my brother to tell dad that I need 200. Well, I actually thought that he’s never give me some but he did so YEY! I and my brother went to the nearest MLhuillier outlet to send it to mr. USER for him to go back to his MOMMMY who doesn’t even know what his son has been doing these past few days. Well, well..So it was actually my first time. I did know how to claim money but SENDING isn’t not my thing since my dad always send the money. The Mister gave me a sheet which has a SEND MONEY on it. Like any other newbie, I read everything before writing some stuff in it. All of the asked there was quite easy since its everything about keith. After giving it to the mister, I waited for him to give me some codes KPTN idk. It took several minutes before he called me with a sarcastic smile on his face. He then told me that ” Ahh…Ikaw diay uyab ni KEITH day???” and I was like ” FUCK!, FRIEND ra mn unta ako g write sa RELATION TO RECEIVER why..why…why…why??”. I just laughed sincerely like any innocent kid. He then continued,” Ahh..ikaw diay anak ni VENERANDO kana dha sa LOOC?”…..it took me like 10 seconds before I said a word. But only “HAHAHAHAH” came out. I feel so embarassed and guilty. I just ran outside and quickly ride a vehicle. In my head, I was like ” what if that mister told dad about what I did today? DAMN HE’s gonna get so mad , he’ll tell me to break up with him!” *Shit sa lahat pa namn ng taong nakakilala, ba’t sa MLHUILLIER PA! Daa…Patay dud ka ron!
But I swear..this is the last time I’ll lend him some money. The next time he’ll lend more without even paying back…I’ll rrrreaaaalllllyy break up with him. I never loved him anyway.
AND YEAH IM THAT NUMB ALREADY. Say what you want. I dont care! >:S
Thursday, January 13, 2011 @ 7:03 AM 0 stares
WELCOME TO MY SILLY LOVE :'(
Unreplied messages,unanswered calls and nonsense chatting at that stupid chatbox. Giving signifance at those days where you’re the only one who knows how important it is. Buying gifts just to let that person know how imporatant he is to you. Not texting him for days just to arrive at that conclusion that HE REALL DOESN’T CARE ANYTHING ABOUT YOU AT ALL. It takes only a few seconds for you to reply him, but he TAKE DAYS just to reply a single word, “bb?” Saying sweet words early in the morning just to remind him that IM STILL HERE wondering if he’s still interested. Pleasing your family just to let them know how stupid I am to REALLY care about you. I just keep on holding those thoughts in my mind just to let others know that I CAN BE A GOOD GIRLFRIEND.
Its almost awkward everytime we talk, it seems like Im the only one who is interested. You just barely reply just to answer few questions and after a few minutes, you’re gone. I wonder where are you spending those texting that for some reason, I ONLY RECEIVED A FEW. Have you ever read my messages lately or are you just ignoring all of them? I texted you that Im sick, but you seemed not worried at all. This is the second time where YOU DONT REALLY GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME. Is that the way you play with those girls? I don’t know what I did or said that made you do this things. Have I been really ignored by my very first boyfriend?
If you’re very busy, then IM BUSIER THAN YOU STUPID considering IM THE MEDICAL STUDENT HERE! Maybe you’re use to this kind of things because I am the girlfriend-what-number. You came from a perfect family and I came from a, what family anyway? If you think that you’ve got a problems with your grades, fucking hamsters and filthy scorpions, well I have a run-away brother who’s been roaming around in the city with her girlfriend, my dad who used to be my favorite dad has become polygamous in giving a fuck of those prostitutes thinking that they can replace my mom’s place, my lil brother and very own 95 grandmother left behind and no one to take care for them cause I have to go college and worst, longing for my mom prescence. Then, all of that YOU’RE HERE GIVING ME ALWAYS A PAIN IN THE HEAD instead of being always in my side. Kept telling me that you’ve sacrificed a lot, HERE I AM KNEELING IN SHAME JUST TO CATCH YOUR ATTENTION. What sacrifices are you talking anyway? You stopped attending that frat, stopped smoking and what else, DID YOU ALSO SACRIFICED FOR THIS NECKLACE THAT YOU GAVE ME? or maybe sacrificed your sexual relationship with freshmen curly just because finally, I SAID YES TO YOU?
You’re the reason why everytime I see my classmates having their lovely-dovey with them, I ALWAYS GET SO MAD JEALOUS. They already regarded me as “DISCOURAGER” and “Miss little bipolar.” You took away my ability to love others, to love life and everything. I’ve already put down my pride and I guess you dont have a plan of putting yours for me. I guess, its going to be myself and myself all throughout. I was inlove but that was only last march 14. March is fast approaching, I DON’T KNOW WHAT WE SHOULD CELEBRATE IN THAT DAY. Is it the year full of moments or the year where you faked everything?
NOTHING MORE, NOTHING LESS.
FUCKYOU! >:(
Friday, October 22, 2010 @ 6:52 AM 0 stares
IT’S OFFICIAL…10/20/10 I TOTALLY DIG OUT ALL KINDS OF PRAYERS JUST TO ASK GOD TO LET ME PASS MATH!
I was too depressed this few days and it really affected my mood everyday. I was having mood swings and usually end up ANGRY all the time! Its sembreak for god’s sake and here I am still thinking about my final grade in MATH! I know it sounds stupid but I AM AN HONOR STUDENT SINCE GRADE SCHOOL and trust me, I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY MATH SHOULD BE LEARNED IN SO COMPLICATED WAYS. I mean, addition,subtraction,multiplication and division are the only BASIC MATH that can really help one’s daily living! I don’t get why it should be complicated in so many ways PROBLEM SOLVING,EQUATIONS, and other CRAP numbers!
Celebrated my 17th birthday yesterday and fuck it, i don’t feel like its my birthday at all! I usually feel very IMPORTANT during my birthday but yesterday was just NOTHING idk, maybe the weather made it worst not to mention the GUEST who promised that would go to my birthday! fuckyeah na lang. Honestly, I understand you can’t come because of your mom’s decision. But can’t you just call me and greet, explain, ask me how was my birthday WITHOUT YOU ( it'll still suck even you’re here ), I was kinda expecting a gift from you but I guess i expected too much. Maybe a bday card would be just enough to prove that you really care.
BUT YEAH, maybe GOD didn’t let me have that HAPPINESS during my birthday because he wants me to sacrifice for my FINAL GRADE IN MATH. So that I can passed it throughout. I went to sleep with a rosary in my hand at noon. AND FINALLY WAKING UP WITH ATHENA’S TEXT that I GOT A PASSING GRADE! and with all my fuck’n ideas running through my mind of what should I do if ever I fail math, how should I explain it to my dad and aunt, and HOW PATHETIC I AM TO MY DEAR OTHER VELEZIANS to fail math instead of ZOOLOGY and CHEMISTRY….I SHOUTED SO HARD THAT MY OLDER BROTHER CHOKED WHILE HE WAS EATING…MY DAD TOLD ME IF I WAS ” retarded ” because I was jumping everywhere. I was so happy that I can’t explain what that feeling was. All I know is that IM REALLY GOING TO HAVE MY SEMBREAK WITHOUT THE GUILT!
I FELT VERY FREE and I was actually BREATHING!! I went to the town gym to watch cheerdance and I saw jikoy ( don’t expect the same from me, i do have forgiven you) and other BOYS WHOM I HAVE ALWAYS Hang on to..tyanak,dario,mark,bosing,jorge…and my COUSINS val,hazel,te ara,pia!
IM SO FREE! I LOVE YOU GOD! thank you so much! :D