Wednesday, April 4, 2012 @ 6:12 AM 0 stares
Tuesday, April 3, 2012 @ 6:14 AM 0 stares
so my original plan was just lay in my bed the whole day and pretend its not RELEASING FUCKING GRADES DAY at my school. But since I received a “goodmorning love” msg, so watever, my day is complete, nevermind. Thought of going to the city so douche won’t get mad but I think she did. She went mad after me leaving her without even saying “adios douche, Im going provincia na”, stay at her house for a pizza and talk about her tantrums about her gf having a summer job. So most likely, thats what I usually do before going back here. imy Janne Lachica.
Texted mamita if she would be so kind to just do the work and just text me my grades along with Yel. Im loving Yel now by the way. She’s not the weird girl anymore with that squeky voice who seem to work in cartoon network. [ well thats what I thought, can’t blame myself. FYI EVERYBODY THINKS OF HER THAT WAY].
Last Friday Passed HealthCare
Today
12:34 pm Passed ORGANIC CHEM at last! [INYERFACE LIBRES!] thanks to Sir Guino for all the chances of cheats. lol See yo in BIOCHEM sir!
3:57 pm ohforfuckssake PASSED STATISTICS. [ Pendang was quite fc calling me “PEPS” and “LOBIN YA” and thinking yeah he’ll pass me cause he’s obviously checkinmeout lol . HAHA]From 3.3 to 2.8 FTW yeah im proud of me.
and some minor subjects that I’ll pass anyways cause they’re MINOR?? And idk if I should be excited for lab mgt or be worried but hey, i did great on those small tests and that finals! So yeah, LAB MGT YOU BETTER LET ME PASS!
Friday, March 16, 2012 @ 8:48 AM 0 stares
So she broke up with me. END
So tired from that mind-blowing Pre-Fi and depressed cause I think everything is not in right condition. What happened last Friday was frankly unexpected from you. You completely despise me that much that you cant stand my prescence. I haven't even received any replies or calls from you for 3 days .At first thought, you were like that for 2 months and yeah I understand that. You got afraid, so you distance yourself. Im not actually mad for giving me those promises, Im just sad that I kinda felt worthless. You should have told me from the start so that I won't be feeling this expectations shattering.
You said that nothing would change but its like I dont know you anymore. I expected a lot from you cause I thought I deserve that kind of love. It makes me so sad cause I felt like I lost a sister.
"But with all honest, you were the only one that made me special that way. I'll never forget you, EVER. Thanks for everything. You’re the only person that ever made me feel anything, really feel. Even if it wasn’t always the best of feelings, you’re the only one who could make me smile or tear me down in three seconds flat. You’re the only person that can drive me crazy, in both good and bad ways. You’re the only person that ever made me feel like I didn’t have to try so hard. I could have fight for the two of us but I dont have the guts anymore. "
ILOVEYOUSOMUCH... so so much.
Friday, February 17, 2012 @ 6:22 AM 0 stares
Should have said, NO.
Should have stayed just the same.
If you’re afraid to fall hard for someone cause they might leave you, then don’t!
“Love is all about risks. Di diay ka mu risk pra nako?”
you once told me that and now you’re telling me right in my face that YOU’RE LIMITING YOURSELF KAY YOU’RE SCARED THAT I’LL LEAVE YOU LIKE ANYBODY ELSE DID? Then whats the point of this relationship???? Palibhasa, you didn’t lose someone very special and the next day everything just changed. Your life turned dead too as each day goes by. I don’t want to lose someone special to me again. And yeah, you’re special.
@ 6:18 AM 0 stares
I thought Im done with this feeling, but hey DISREGARDED we’ve meet again! People are the same no matter what, they’re all the same. They tell you you’ll get more closer when your in relationship but how come mine always fail? Why do I feel lonelier when in a relationship than when Im single?
I just don’t really get this at all.
@ 6:14 AM 0 stares
Im here sitting under these shade, looking at the stars above. The night is so gloomy, perfect time to smoke and kill my lungs again. Thinking, confused of what I did. Done with valentines.
So Im in a relationship again, for the 2nd time. Everything’s been quite nice and awesome with her. I feel like everyday is just pure bliss knowing that she’s there. Calling every night just to talk, txting every minute just to see if Im fine and finding any time just to hug and kiss. But that was a year ago, 2011.
Its 2012 by the way, and yeah we got official on JANUARY 3 right after new year. For some reason, the closeness went away. The distance went in. I felt stupid and betrayed. Days passed and I asked her why everything changed. “I’m scared to death that you’ll just leave me hanging there like I don’t mean to you. I don‘t want to be hurt.” After reading the text msg, everything just went soft and I found myself crying. I couldn’t help myself no matter how hard I try to control my emotions. Crying right after the mass and at Mang Inasal in front of Ramon and Mikee made me a weakling. Everything just crushed down.
Days passed, she said how sorry she was and I understand that. I just don’t get why EVERYTHING CHANGED. Im a very particular person and I usually notice every details of a person but If I were to choose, I THINK I’LL RATHER NOT BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND IF THIS IS JUST GOING TO BE ALWAYS. I’d rather stay on those days where you still call me every night, hug and hug and hug me, txt and reply me immediately, ask for my whereabouts, smile and sing for me, worry if I don’t reply, say good morning and good night, say IMISSYOU and ILOVEYOU and other things that I really really missed about you and, WE‘RE STILL FRIENDS. I wish you never changed at all, but you did.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011 @ 7:12 AM 0 stares
“iloveyousomuch”
For accepting my friendly request at fb. For giving me those scary glimpses at Chem Long Exam. For making that Ginabot-FirstTime-Eating awkward. For calling me when you first got hold of my digits, though I was drunk at that time. For texting me that you really wanna see me even though you’re drunk.For always attempting to call even though you knew I won’t answer it but yeah I did because you’re sweet. For forcing me to show you my Tumblr page which my ex-bf or bestfriends didn’t knew I was running one-hell-of-a-blog. For calling and talking everything about you and me during summer nights. For keeping in touch always despite the distance. For being so honest about your feelings towards me. For giving me you’re first “ILOVEYOU”. For that first hug at 1st day of 2nd year and for texting me your “THANKS FOR THE HUG” though we’re so near at that time. For forcing me go early during enrollment so that I can be your classmate. For still giving me same attention even though we’re not classmate anymore. For always finding time to see and hug me during class hours. For that first jeepney ride with you to labangon. For again, calling every night despite our anaphy and your biochem exams the next day. For the leakages. For the sweet GOOD MORNING messages that always brighten my day. For being so patient everytime I turn you down. For letting me meet your friends. For those things I want and there you are paying even though I have my money in hand already. For accompanying me. For choosing me over your classmates to spend a break with. For calling me weird names and now, LOVE. For that SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETEEST reaction when you learned that Keith is going to see me at school but still you did find me and told me how relieved you are upon seeing me drunk and not with Keith. For that first friday jogging at abellana where you lied to your parents just to go wild running with me. For that random holding of hands when we have to cross the streets and when going inside the jeep. For laughing at my jokes, flaws and mistakes. For inviting me to your debut and finally meeting your family. For still choosing me over Pochi :))))). For always telling me your whereabouts and personal probs. For being so honest to those who are having likeys in your classroom. For that first date at Da Vinci. For thats everything that should be called FIRST. For swimming with me on my 18th. For giving me that 1st dogtag and a lighter. For (s’mores) haha spelling and in songhits. For the guts to go meet my relatives. For those afternoon movies and PLL marathon. For always treating me to mcdo. For understanding and appreciating me ALWAYS. For being always there when I needddd you the moossst. For loving me. And for those things that I can’t mention cause Im running out of ideas already. I LOVE YOU and thats all I know.